Sorry, but I don’t give money to beggars. Its not a question of 5-10 rupees that will make me richer, its just my way.

My mum always reminds me how compassionate and emphatic I was during my young age. I used to ask her for “ek suka” (oh well its 25 paisa coin and I am sure kids these days don’t even know about it) and give it to a beggar on the street. Things have indeed changed for me.

I often walk from Ratna Park to Sundhara. Say, it is to save that extra buck I might have to pay to the taxi, if I take that full circle of one way Tudikhel. In the mornings, till 11 its fine to walk on that stretch. After that it becomes chaotic. The Kathmandu Muncipality doesn’t allow the street vendors to keep their stalls before 6pm and during the day time it is like cat and mouse chase between them. There is another lot of people you find on the footpath during this the day time. Even the Muncipality doesn’t bother them.

I don’t want to call them beggars. The word itself is so derogating . But I cannot think of any other word to describe them. All these people do, is sit there and ask for money. I will start from one corner of the street, right outside the post office. There is this mid aged lady with a flex printing of a patient from hospital and a big speaker. “…. Waha ko dubai mrigaula nachalne raw aha 6 mahina dekhi hospital ma bhayeko le waha ko aarthik awastha ramro nabhayeko karan le……tapai ko sahyog ko apekshya garda chau…dhanyabaad”. I don’t remember the exact words but a little girl’s voice goes on and on from the recorder.

Second person I encounter is, this another lady, maybe in her 20s. Perfectly healthy, very well built, lies on a piece of Afgan right outside the Kathmandu Mall. The only problem she has is one of her feet is amputated. She sleeps the whole day right there, and passersby gave her 5-10 rupees each.

Third one of the lot is right outside the NAC building (previously known as RNAC). Funny that the same recording of the little girl goes on loop, just the picture on the flex is different and the name is different in the record. Before I forget to mention, there are in between the foreigner beggars with babies who will make you guilty conscious showing you the baby and saying the baby is hungry, she needs to buy milk. By evening you will see these women around the bhattis in Basantapur. Oh Please! Trust me, the food in those places are a lot more expensive than the booze. All these ladies are there to drink.

I once read in the papers that even the babies are not their own and are hired. The babies are drugged so that they sleep all the time and I started to notice that really! these kids are always sleeping. Something to ponder isn’t it?

I have too many such instances to share. Once I helped this old woman who used to live around my house, and later I came to know that the money I used to give her, she spent it in the bhatti nearby. So I lost it, all my empathy, sensitivity, all of it. It is not that I don't help but I see the need of it very closely. I think they should work and have a living. Call me insensitive but just being rational here.

Oh yea..... i have been to the bhattis.....lol....

Ujl,
I am not saying all who are begging are cons.....but it looks bit strange you know....this woman with only one leg.....is so perfectly fine....she can actually do some skill work thru her hands..... garne le gari rakheko chha......but hoina begging is a better option.

मागेर खाने कसको रहर हुन्छ र? When administrative system (so called democratic system) becomes childish then we will see more begging. 

Why are you blaming the state??? The USA has a very good governance.... but apparently there are more beggars and homeless than any other country.....
Rahar hoina choice ho.... I again say.....all of them are not dishonest... but the ones i m mentioning here are like that

Ambrosia, I am talking about the administrative system of the world, not just Nepal or America. Also, you are totally ignoring the psychological aspects of human beings. How can you expect a depressed women smile at you?

When and where have i said I want a depressed women to smile at me????

Your title " Call me insensitive". hmm did somebody told you that "you are insensitive" while discussing it with your friends or you just realized it (that am I being insensitive because I don't feel for them or something like that) by yourself ? And one more thing you hate "alcohol". Don't you? Why I don't know, but you do hate alcohol. Correct me if I am wrong here.

Regarding going to "bhattis"... Its unfortunate that few people go for alcohol just to run away from their problems, which is always there until they solve it when they are sober. next day they get up and do the same thing again and again.. Few people are alcoholic which is a disorder, I don't call them "jadhya", those people have that this disorder which make them consume alcohol everyday.

Be humble to everyone my friend...

Be gentle to earth
Be gentle to others
Be gentle to yourself.

My Friend,
This is not about alcohol....and you are absolutely wrong.....I have nothing against alcohol. Infact I love drinking and I love those bhattis.
This is just my perspective or call it a frustration.... I know exactly where my sensitivity works and where I close it :)
If i was not humble...I guess by now I would have been swearing at a lot of people...which I dont....
Again, you have the right to disagree with things I write....I ll say its your perspective which is opposite of mine.
Thank you!

Ambrosia, 

   Of course, there is no "depressed woman", but the TONE of your writing reflects that you show no compassion towards them.  Your story on Aunti-ji shows the similar TONE, too.

    And there are many incomplete sentences with missing words in your writing.  When you write, write it to readers. You really need to EXPRESS your thoughts clearly when you put in writings. Thats why they have a saying, "Write to Express, not to Impress. "
  
    I am NOT here to discourage you from writing. Honestly,  I, myself can't write correctly when it comes to writing.

     PLEASE always remember to appreciate your readers, they are the one spending their valuable time to read your story.

I am expecting jaw dropping stories from you in near future.  Until then, Sayonara.

@Ambrosia
the way she could write and lead is what attractive about her(that stupid crush). Apart from that she's complete mess and crazy.
well! you too write Okay :). So that somehow reminded me that mesmerized crush.
HMM! But you mentioned you take a taxi. she rides a scooty. So you may not be her.
Wait! u said u have been to bhatti. well!she is a booze lover too. k tha bhattima janako lagi scooty bechera po taxi chadi hidnu pareko ho kee? lol..just saying :)

My perception: you would be a good writer someday.
That's what i always said her to be.
doesn't matter you're my crush or candy crush, you do write well. keep it up.

Sojhoketo,
I am glad i press all the wrong buttons of your emotions....lol....now you wont sleep tonight trying to figure out if i am the same candy or crush...lol
I dont know if I want to be a writer.....but i thoroughly enjoy writing here....for past 2 weeks it has become a routine....and I am loving it!!
Thank you for the support...positive motivations always works with me!!!

@ambrosia
I figured out, you're the same crush. Unlike last time this time you have come via sajha as
my sajha crush.
Dear Sajha and all sajha members including them(who dislikes sojoketo over the limit),
'I, Sojoketo, hereby declared that Ambrosia is my sajha crush' :)

HUH?? Mmmmm really.....mmmmm yea......what am i suppose to say now o_O

@sojoketo: she may be a crush of thousands guys but what really matters is who she belongs to (ME!!). Fataha manchhe, arkaki mathi aankha lagaune...

If you are walking that full circle in order to save a buck then you are fully justified to be insensitive.

No i dont walk the entire circle....i just have to walk that one side:)

Btw everyone is declaring one or the other thing here......lol .....lol

@mancini
afno ta bhaye po?? :( afno nabhayepaci arkako mathi bhaye pani ankha ta launai paryo.
k garnu lovee ankha safa man :)
abuii..k kura garca yo mancini le? maile ambby lai kaile dekhera ankha launa lai??
@ambrosia
i have just admitted what I have felt. so I said the truth you're my sajha crush, the way taylor swift is my music crush, alicia silverstone is my The crush crush. :)
ramra mancheko pani criticize garne ta bhai halchan ni.. :)
so ambrosia, you ain't have to do anything regarding my crush, you just keep on writing.. :)

Sojhoketo....I am speechless....
OK like you said I am just gonna write....and let you appreciate me....

huss!! :)