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Tibet: Her Pain, My Shame
China Digital Times[Wednesday, March 26, 2008 00:02] |
Tang
Danhong å”丹鸿,(born in 1965 ) is a poet and documentary filmmaker from
Chengdu, Sichuan. She has made several documentaries in and about Tibet
since the 1990s. She wrote the following essay this week and published
it on her own blog (hosted outside of China), partially translated by
CDT:
…
For more than a decade, I have frequently entered Tibet and often
stayed there for a long time, traveling or working. I have met all
kinds of Tibetans, from youngsters on the streets, folk artists,
herders on the grasslands, voodoo doctors in mountain villages, to
ordinary cadres in state agencies, street vendors in Lhasa, monks and
cleaners in monasteries, artists and writers…Among those Tibetans I
have met, some frankly told me that Tibet was a small country several
decades ago, with its own government, religious leader, currency and
military; some stay silent, with a sense of helplessness, and avoid
talking with me, a Han Chinese, afraid this is an awkward subject. Some
think that no matter what happened, it is an historical fact that
Chinese and Tibetans had a long history of exchanges with each other,
and the relationship must be carefully maintained by both sides. Some
were angered by the railway project, and by those roads named “Beijing
Road,†“Jiangsu Road,†“Sichuan-Tibet road,†but others accept them
happily. Some say that you (Han Chinese) invest millions in Tibet but
you also got what you wanted and even more; some say you invest in the
development but you also destroy, and what you destroy is exactly what
we treasure….. What I want to say here is that no matter how different
these people are, they have one thing in common: They have their own
view of history, and a profound religious belief.
For anyone who
has been to Tibet, he/she should sense such a religious belief among
Tibetans. As the matter of fact, many are shocked by it. Such attitude
has carried on throughout their history, and is expressed in their
daily lives. This is a very different value, especially compared with
those Han Chinese who have no beliefs, and now worship the cult of
money. This religious belief is what Tibetans care about the most. They
project this belief onto the Dalai Lama as a religious persona. …… For
anyone who has been to Tibet, it should not be strange to see the
“common Tibetan sceneâ€: Is there any Tibetan who does not worship him
(the Dalai Lama)? Is there any Tibetan unwilling to hang up his photo
in his own shrine? (These photos are smuggled back in from abroad,
secretly copied and enlarged, not like those Mao portraits printed by
the government that we Han Chinese once had to hang up.) Is there any
Tibetan who wants to verbally disrepect the Dalai Lama? Is there a
Tibetan who does not want to see him? Is there any Tibetan who does not
want to present Hada [white welcoming scarf] to him?
Other than
those voices that the rulers want to hear, have we ever heard the
Tibetans’ full, real voices? Those Han Chinese who have been in Tibet,
now matter if one is a high official, government cadre, tourist or
businessman, have we all heard their real voices, which are silenced,
but are still echoing everywhere?
Is this the real reason that
all monasteries in Tibet are forbidden from hanging up the Dalai Lama’s
picture? Is this the reason that all work units have officials to check
in every household and to punish those who hang up his picture? Is this
the reason that the government has people to stop those believers on
the pilgrimage path on every religious celebration day? Is this the
reason for the policy barring government employees from having their
children study in Dharamsala; otherwise, they will be fired and their
house will be taken away? Is this the reason that at all sensitive
times, government officials will hold meetings in monasteries, to force
monks to promise to “support the Party’s leadership†and “Have no
relations with the Dalai splitist cliques� Is this the reason we
refuse to negotiate, and constantly use dehumanizing language to
humiliate him? After all, isn’t this the very reason to reinforce the
“common Tibetan scene,†making this symbol of nationality more holy? ……
Why
can’t we sit down with the Dalai Lama who has abandoned calls for
“independence†and now advocates a “middle way,†and negotiate with him
with sincerity, to achieve “stability†and “unity†through him?
Because
the power difference of the two sides is too big. We are too many
people, too powerful: Other than guns and money, and cultural
destruction and spiritual rape, we do not know other ways to achieve
“harmony.â€
……
This group of people who believe in
Buddhism because they believe in cause and effect and transmigration of
souls, oppose anger and hatred, developed a philosophy that Han
nationalists will never be able to understand. Several Tibetan monk
friends, just the “troublemaker monk†type that are in the monasteries
explained to me their view on “independenceâ€: “actually, we may well
have been ethnic Han in a previous incarnation, and in our next
incarnation we might well become ethnic Han. And some ethnic Han in a
previous life may well have been Tibetan or may become Tibetan in their
next life. Foreigners or Chinese, men or women, lovers aand enemies,
the souls of the world transmigrate without end. As the wheel turns,
states arise and die, so what need is there for independence?†This
kind of religion, this kind of believer, can one ever think that they
would be easy to control? Yet there is a paradox here: if one wants
them to give up the desire for independence, then one must respect and
protect their religion.
……
Not long ago, I read some
posts by some radical Tibetans on an online forum about Tibet. These
posts were roughly saying: “We do not believe in Buddhism, we do not
believe in karma. But we have not forgotten that we are Tibetan. We
have not forgotten our homeland. Now we believe the philosophy of you
Han Chinese: Power comes out of the barrel of a gun! Why did you Han
Chinese come to Tibet? Tibet belongs to Tibetans. Get out of Tibet!â€
Of
course behind those posts, there are an overwhelming number of posts
from Han “ patriots.†Almost without exception, those replies are full
of words such as “Kill them!†“Wipe them out!†“Wash them with blood!â€
“Dalai is a liar!†— those “passions†of the worshippers of violence
that we are all so familiar with.
When I read these posts, I feel so sad. So this is karma. ……
In
the last week, after I put down the phone which cannot reach anyone on
the the other end, when I face the information black hole caused by
internet blockage, even I believe what Xinhua has said — strangely I do
believe this part: There were Tibetans who set fire to shops and killed
those poor innocent Han Chinese who were just there to make a living.
And I still feel extremely sad. Since when were such seeds planted?
During the gunshots of 1959? During the massive destruction during the
Cultural Revolution? During the crackdown in 1989? During the time we
put their Panchen Lama under house arrest and replaced him with our own
puppet? During those countless political meetings and confessions in
the monasteries? Or during the time when a seventeen-year-old nun was
shot on the magnificent snowy mountain, just because she wanted to see
the Dalai Lama? ……..
Or during numerous moments which seem
trivial but which make me ashamed: I was ashamed when I saw Tibetans
buy live fish from Han fish sellers on the street and put them back in
the Lhasa river; I was ashamed when I saw more and more Han beggars on
the streets of Lhasa–even beggars know it is easier to beg in Tibet
than in Han areas; I felt ashamed when I saw those ugly scars from
mines on the sacred mountains in the morning sunlight; I felt ashamed
when I heard the Han Chinese elite complain that the Chinese government
has invested so many millions of yuan, that economic policy favors
Tibetans, and that the GDP has grown so fast, so, “What else do these
Tibetans want?â€
Why can’t you understand that people have
different values? While you believe in brainwashing, the power of a gun
and of money, there is a spiritual belief that has been in their minds
for thousands of years and cannot be washed away. When you claim
yourselves as “saviors of Tibetans from slavery society,†I am ashamed
for your arrogance and your delusions. When military police with their
guns pass by me in the streets of Lhasa, and each time I am there I can
see row upon row of military bases… yes, I, a Han Chinese, feel ashamed. ……
What
makes me feel most ashamed is the “patriotic majorityâ€: You people are
the decedents of Qinshi Huangdi who knows only conquering by killing;
you are the chauvinists who rule the weak by force; you are those
cowards who hide behind guns and call for shooting the victims; you
suffer from Stockholm Syndrome; you are the blood-thirsty crazies of an
“advanced†culture of Slow slicing and Castration. You are the sick
minds waving the “patriotic†flag. I look down on you. If you are Han
Chinese, I am ashamed to be one of you.
Lhasa is on fire, and
there are gunshots in Tibetan areas in Sichuan and Qinghai. Even I
believe this — actually, I do believe this part of the facts. In those
“patriotic†posts which shout “Kill them!†“Wipe them out!†“Wash them
with blood!†“Dalai is a liar!†I saw the mirror image of those Tibetan
radicals. Let me say that you people (“patriotic youthâ€) are Han
chauvinists who destroy thousands of years of friendship between Han
and Tibetan people; you are the main contributors to the hatred between
ethnic groups. You people do not really “highly support†the authority;
rather, you people are in effect “highly supporting†“Tibetan
independence.â€
Tibet is disappearing. The spirit which makes her
beautiful and peaceful is disappearing. She is becoming us, becoming
what she does not want to become. What other choice does she have when
facing the anxiety of being alienated? To hold onto her tradition and
culture, and revive her ancient civilization? Or to commit suicidal
acts which will only add to Han nationalists’ bloody, shameful glory?
Yes,
I love Tibet. I am a Han Chinese who loves Tibet, regardless of whether
she is a nation or a province, as long as she is so voluntarily.
Personally, I would like to have them (Tibetans) belong to the same big
family with me. I embrace relationships which come self-selected and on
equal footing, not controlled or forced, both between peoples and
nations. I have no interest in feeling “powerful,†to make others fear
you and be forced to obey you, both between people and between nations,
because what’s behind such a “feeling†is truly disgusting. I have left
her (Tibet) several years ago, and missing her has become part of my
daily life. I long to go back to Tibet, as a welcomed Han Chinese, to
enjoy a real friendship as equal neighbor or a family member. |
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