Everyone, the world loves beauty and smile
These two things, I've never had one
Can't get rid of an ugly face of mine
I've lived with this too long
But no more can i behold this
I am a burden and this is not where I belong.

I've never done anything wrong
I don't deserve this
And dont want people to be like me, when Im gone
To the death is I only deserve to kiss.

Nobody likes me
I think I'm a burden
Why is that, Im ugly
Why do i get so much of pain

Nobody understands me
God take me away with you
Or am i too ugly in heaven to be
Everything turns ugly that I touch or do

I have nothing good in life
Everything is a mess
I wanna pull out a knife
And stab myself for I care less

But you can't hurt me, No.
For Im already so hurt
So world, let me go
I am an ugly dirt

I must die, I must say goodbye
I am a burden and always be
I am ugly and you're not
God hates me and so do I

Nails,
nice of you to get my email and not reply back! :( :( thanks a lot!!!!! Ke!!

oi burden...im sure u know it too..but well u know..burden or not..(the name/nick ke!)..u aint the only one who thinks and feels that he/she is a burden ;o)....

so yap do worry..u aint the only one ..in case u thot u were alone!hah!;oP hehe..wet blanket aint i?;oP hehee

quote,
You don't know what it is like to be me
Only will you know, if you had a life like me
A life which feels like a burden and treats you like a burden
My life is broken and I'm left in middle of nowhere

unquote..

just wanna question u ;oP hehe..interrogation time!hah!;oP hehe..dun worry no need to answer..u got that right ;o)..or do i need to read ur right for u?;oP hehe..i mean if u want me to..let me tell u this 1st..i dunno the rights!wahahaha..movie dherai haeryo ke :oS ;oP hehe

anyways...

do u know wat is like to be another?
have u seen wat a life wat others have?and had?have u felt those things they might have felt?..
or is it tht u just seem to see and notice.. the good things happenin to another?
the things u long for..and wished u had?
if thats the case...dun u think theres another one who feels like u?..
only his/her burdens?..wat about those who feels their own burden..and of others?
where are they left?..
at least i see ur are in the middle..middle of nowhere it might be...
im not talkn about me when i say this..or am i?...
i wish i was in the middle of smthing...anything..nothing!?
.. ask me not..why..
when u feel u havent even started anything..and yet time passes by so fast...
like its gonna come to the end before u know it..
middle ...tho its nowhere...sounds a lot better place to be than..the somwhere..wherever i am in..:oD...

but in the end..one life we have(do u wanna deny?even this?;oP hehe)....
somewhere i might be...scary as it is..and scarier it seems where i might end one day..
at the end of the line..death does await..why haste for smthing thats inevitable..patience!!;o) hehe..
life in the end...wat is it?experiecing things that u expect?or experiecing things..that u never dared to dream..but seein they do happen?;o) hehe..

ok ok..jpt ;oP hehe..typin mood mah ;oP hehe..

anyways burden..more pls ;o)...ke ke type garcha ho timi ley ta!baba!;oP hehe..kasto mero daar bhoyeko lai pani daar dincha ;oP hehe..yes..if that makes u feel good..i guess..u have to realise..there is always somene else doin worse than u :o)...life aint so bad..how shit it really is ;o)...hehe

good day!:oD

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all yall f.kers who ridicule the posting
if you have never felt how debilitating depression can be, STAY YOUR FKING COMMENTS ASSWIPES
burden,
thoughts of suicide occur to a lot of people
most people are never able to articulate these feelings
you have at least come out (even if anonymously) in this forum
to me this is a sign that you will be willing to accept help
i personally know how crushing depression can be
every night you stay awake yet you have nightmares
every morning is the start of yet another cycle of fear and uncertainty
you feel like your not worth anything
that there is no point in trying
no point in living
JUST REMEMBER, IT DOSENT HAVE TO BE THIS WAY
if you are a student, your school will probably have a counciling center that can help
take advantage of it
if your not, seek out the nearest clinic
these people are there to help you
dont be afraid to accept help
you will find that depression is literaly just a state of mind
it can, and it will, go away

well ive become this type of person that hates talking to people, I dont want to face nobody, I dont like talking, I am in my own way like a loner walking in a highway.. I do my thing and walk along but makes me feel worst how my lifes going, like there iis no point, i feel like im worthless. i dont like talking to people, i just like darkness and silence. I hate when i see smile on people's faces yet hate sad faces too.

I hate the sky when its blue
In this world, nothing is true
God is a lie, I know
he makes me feel like an ugly crow
I like to flow blood out of my skin
for it feels like my soul's released
somewhere dark and silent
But all this for a minute of moment
There is no point of me being in this world
I live for myself
The sadder I am, now the more selfish have i become
Makes me feel worse when these feelings come
they come from my heart, deep inside.
fingers just type the words,
words that come out of my soul
I have no guts to face the future
not even my soul wants to be in me
for so much ive given of torture
Im so goddamn tired of being here
To the death, I do not fear
So take me with you
and my memories too
the past memories of my life
which were the precious time
can never forget those moments
when i felt like i had all the happiness
and i know its all gone
its not coming back
thats the damn thing I only lack
my pain is the most real
it will never heal
only will tears come
flowing out of my eyes
now let me say goodbyes
to this world to me that lies...

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you watched gladiator?
the line that struck me the most was
'i will see you in the afterlife
but not yet
not yet'

everyones gotta die sometime
and dont worry, you will too
why hurry it along
i bet there are lots of varieties of ice-cream youve never tasted
why deprive yourself of the opportunity?

there are better ways of getting attention than to kill yourself
for one, you wont be around to get the attention you desire
our brain has a way of tricking itself into believing things that arent necessarily true
dont think too much
if you act, its easy to shut off that part of the mind that insists you cant
and you will realize that YOU CAN
an objective third party can help you sort stuff out
of youre drowning, it makes sense to reach for a life preserver

Stop your fcukin poetry and GO TO HELL! I repeat..... GO TO Freakin' HELL!
I will buy rope for you..... mail me your mailing address! Tomorrow u will get the rope ... GO HANG YOURSELF YOU LOSER!!!!!!

thanks nueetey, Ill try doing that...
Prashanta dear is another desperate like me, yes liking to curse, say the f word like hoghfly and burst out anger on somebody else like them people.. ow well... ill continue writing my poems if i will like, you wont stop me.

Don worry burden

R u really burden ?

Keep faith in god

keep on writing...

if that will help you ...
everyone feels at one point in life or another they are a burden to someone. It's what you do when u feel that u're being a burden ...is what will change the fact.
You're not alone in this...

I think burden needs to meet me immediately...

burden.. what you need is some p*ussy. which you wouldn't get behaving sh*it like this. so, you may want to try some d*ck in your local market. yeah, that'll take you to unbrdened life.

Sujanks,
Sorry if you're also having problems in your life for you're cursing disgusting here, there shoul;d be a big problem around you, solve it dear, this isnt going to work. And thanks to the rest of you

Give me one reason for this
Im talking about my life
What did I do wrong
What did I miss

Days are noisy yet silent deep inside
Sky is blue yet grey for me
Seems like the happiness has hide
Nothing leaving behing but sadness and I

Smiles have all faded away from my face
Life's showing me only the sad ways
where only night, no days
Yes but thats what I like when light fades

Listening to voices yet this silence
Silence in me, will always remain
Still giving me all these pain
Never gonna let go of me again
but pain has become my friend
since no one is
I dont wanna lose nor I wanna gain
Wanna fade away with the smell of this rain

Time is flying
Eveery second, its giving me pain
Ive died, my soul's slowly dying
My soul will also walk away sometime when Im lying






it's raining today,
just like yesterday
So in my bed, I lay
watching the rain fall again and again

It sounds wonderful
To the rain is Im only merciful
because this is the only thing that wont hurt
I like it, I thank you..

God now must be jealous
Since Im satisfied with it.
I am although thappy with this little bit
It's ok if you're also gonna take this away
you've always treated me this way
So it doesnt matter anyway
I dont care, I have no say


No satisfaction,
no feelings, no emoitions,
no more connection between you and me
for i've had enough of fiction
Now I am all lies
I depend to it and Im around it
Every second my soul dies
One day I want to sleep
Sleep like never gonna wake up..
Ill be happy inside me deep
Im gonna feel like Im on the top
Ihate every single thing so much
I dont know what love is
I hate and wanna destroy myself
God can have this pain yourself
Ill be dead and dull
I will be a freaking skull

burden - do you need help?? it seems like you have maybe a bipolar disorder or something ke!!! you seem to be really depressed and then you get excited about how many people responded to you ni!! I suggest that get some drug therapy and go see maybe a humanistic therapist ke!!! So, that you don't dwell on the past as much and concentrate on the present! :)

or the alternative: just call me! (wink,wink) :P

this person is the stupidest thing alive ive ever seen, i mean everybody thinks that way you know, its just inside the hearts, you dont express it. Thats dumb, people are gonna make more fun of you. The best thing to do is move along, just focus on your thing, your goal and make it good, be easy, think calm, dont overstress, life is only once. You gotta live life to the fullest and stop overwhelming about your looks or what poeple think of you. Its how you take yourself, ask yourself what you are till now, you are not burden, no one is and everybody is selfish in this world. You have to be independent and know that God is there and He'll definitly do good and ... HAVE FUN.. life is too short for fun as time flies whereas life is too long for tears so don't waste your life with tears and othert thing, committing suicide is totally stupid, how old are you? 12, 13? Only crazy, mental, old or kids committ suicide, the stupid ones. That is not the way, you won't be able to kill yourself. Killing isnt easy, nothing is. You'll end up being disabled or end up with a disease if you continue torturing yourself physically as well as mentally. Think easy. Do not care what others say and show them what you can do, Im sure you are a genius, your poems are awesome.
Good luck :)

i think what you need is a d*ck shoved up your asss... btw.. i am living happily in WA, with a 19 year old girlfriend from Russia and yes i have my own business.. but dude, you go get a life ...

i wish i could die but kya karey,family ke barey mein bhi sochna padtaa hai.
dang, who created this thread? had 4gotten abt suicide for a while but now again .......

Is cyanide the easiest means to kill oneself? Just wondering!

Oh boy, why does life has to be so miserable? Shake your head, take a shot, and scream out loud ----> Fcuk ya'all and bring it on!!!!!!

Bang!

You are ready take on the world. And who gives a fcuk as long as you are happy eh'!
Too much pessimism man, I kind-of ceased to read.

But then again, maybe you just love to write it this way and are in fact lead much happier life than many of us here in Sajha ;). Now.. there you go hehe;)

IndisGuise:)

Azn, yes im stupid and i cannot move along, i have to die.
sujanks, then why do you not keep yourself busy with her and sotp cursing at me for ive had enough
Newyorker, dont die, you deserve life, im the only 1 deserving death
Indisguise, bring it on man, i mean the death

I have shattered to pieces already
it is no possible to put back together
for they're too sharp now
and too small to matter
yet sharp enough to cut me into pieces
makes me bleed and bleed
no more I want to breathe

I'm burning to ashes
ive always got watery eye lashes
my skin's also got red rashes
it hurts my soul when the light flashes

you give me a word
my soul sentences it
stab me with a sword
and my soun heals it

Cut me with a knife
so that not even my soul could heal it
butcher my life
so that blood will spill everywhere

burn my body in a flame
then give my soul a name
to you, i wont blame
iits just my life game

and my love, ill only meet you in heaven
although i thank you for whatever you've given
you'll always be in the corner of my heart
but for you im just a dirt

oie burden: you forgot to reply back to me ke! :( :( you replied to everyone that posted on your thread except me? :(
that's mean ke now! i feel all left out now! :(

O sweets, here for you, I am cool right now, you calm me down everytime, just didnt get to mention, you are sweet and always be sweet. :)

Hehe..........:)