Almost idential story, actually mine is worse than yours including personal life;;, used to get depressed, frustated, exhausted all the time. But guess what? I decied to move from here to a differnent place just to give a try.
I don't know how you interpret it, but there was something on these words that fire a spark inside me. I thought about it for a few days, literaly deeply and now I am re-locating to a differnt place. These are the words that person told me.
"गरेन भने कहिले केहि हुँदैन. तपाई तेही नै बसी राख्नु हुन्छ, next generation आउछ, hang out गर्छ, अनि आफ्नो बाटो लिदै तपाई भन्दा अगाडी जान्छ. फेरी अर्को generation आउछ, तेही गर्छ अनि उ पनि अगाडी जान्छ. तेस पछी अर्को , अनि अर्को ,अनि अर्को.................. तर तपाई तेही बसी राख्नु हुन्छ, अनि furstation depression दुनिया थरि ले पिरोल्छ !!"
I will be always ( my entire life) greatful for that person for telling me this and now because of it, I am trying to do somthing. I don't know what will happen next, but at least I am trying.
So now, to help yourself first you have to HELP YOURSELF FIRST. we can just give suggestions, but can' t make you to do anything. If you don't help yourself first, nobody can. I don't know whats you up to but if something is hunting you, just let it go....move ahead. Straight your lazy a*** up and start doing something even if you don't feel like doing it . Remember this "NO MATTER WHAT YOU HAVE TO DO? DO IT FOR YOURSELF".
Regarding friends
We humans are come in different versions.
. But there is one common thing in all of us. that is if you talk with somebody they will talk back. If you talk good they will talk good and if you are talk about your problems so do they. But each of us have a tolerance level for everything and if somebody is repeating same thing again and again, we tend to igonre that person. I know this is unfortunate but this what it is . That might be the case for you. If its not, you just didn't pick up the right person to be friends with. And don't worry about that, you make friends. loose some, make some more ,loose a lit bit and make more...This is life going proces... you will be fine will find good friends.
If you manage to read so far, congrats you are already on your way. You are not lazy (otherwise you wouldn't reach so far). Straight yourself up and start doing something right now...My best wishes for you.
